New Day

So, everyone I know I've already told, but if anyone else is following my crazy roller coaster life the most recent dip i went on was a big one. My partner of 4.5 years and I mutually decided to separate a few weeks ago. I would say our relationship had ended a while ago. We drifted apart and starting to see other paths in front of us that didn't include each other, But only recently we were man enough to bring it up and talk about it and decide that we should separate and not live in the same place. There is a lot of love between us, that's not why we had broken up but we just felt more unhappy then happy. Its been hard in a different way. Its not hard to be away from him the hard part is dealing with everything else that is new. Right now were still living in the same place but I've needed to stay at my BFFs place (Tanya) for the last few days to just kinda let my mind work things out. I'm going to try not to stay here as much as I can but her and her roommates have welcomed me and have said I can stay here if I want before tanya moves out in a few weeks. I just don't want to over stay my welcome and I hope they will tell me to leave if they feel that way or feel free to ask or tell me anything. I have many friends who were quick to open their door and it means so much to me.

I woke up today a while ago and Tanya's alarm clock has been going off ,really loud, for about 15 mins.. haha, Shes not a morning person. I don't know how she can sleep threw that shit. I've got to get ready for work. I hope I can concentrate on my new job today.

With all this change recently its been hard to focus and think properly but I'm sure it will all work itself out.